Day 1 - Sugar Detox

This is what I ate yesterday, baked eggs with salt and pepper, a Greek salad with chicken, feta and Tzatziki sauce, and a chopped chicken Subway salad.   I am not supposed to eat cheese, so I should have skipped the feta cheese.  Also, Tzatziki sauce I realized is yogurt based and I'm not supposed to have dairy.  I know I didn't follow the detox exactly but for me this is really good.  I only ate around 813 calories which is too low and 9% carbs. 

I was proud of myself because there is candy everywhere, at work and home.  Right now the person next to me is eating a piece of cake, ugh.  However, I am not, so small baby steps, I guess.  I feel pretty good, sometimes hungry but not miserable which is good.  I am going to try to figure out more foods I can eat to get more healthy calories. 

21 Day Sugar Detox

I'm miserable, ugh.  I weighed myself this morning and I gained 5 pounds this weekend as a result of eating birthday cake, cookies, pizza, wings and Gelato.  However, I did sort of have this realization that alcohol really send me into complete binge mode.  Friday night while playing cards with the girls, I drank too much wine and a pumpkin martini, yum, which by the way do not mix well.  I was miserable the next day.  Hung-over, starving and craving all kinds of sugar and greasy fats, which sent me into a non-productive, high calorie weekend.  Ever since I drank way too much alcohol I have been craving sugar like crazy.  The Halloween candy around the house keeps calling me by name where as last week I was doing pretty well, even forgetting we had candy in the house.   I know I am a sugar addict and that my body is used to running on sugar and carbohydrates for so long that fighting it is such a battle.  It's so hard.

I decided to give this 21 Day Sugar Detox a real solid try.  I am only going to eat things on the Good Foods list for 21 days, which I suppose means a lot of brown rice, chicken and salads.  Also, no alcohol and no candy on Halloween, now that's scary.  I may have to skip all social plans. 

I figured if I start today my 21 days will be up before Thanksgiving.  I really just want to learn to eat sugar and carbs in moderation and break the cravings, which I really believe is what thin people do.  I know I am going to be miserable, especially the first week.  I'm already miserable, so far today and it's only been about 4 hours.   I ate this piece of baked egg for breakfast.  One meal done and only 62 to go, this makes it sound more doable. 

Feeling Good

Today I woke up and I feel good.  I kind of had a crappy night because I saw my Ex with someone new for the first time, insert pains of hurt/disgust and I spent the night wondering if I made the right choices.  However, after waking up this morning I had a moment of clarity.  I knew I made the right choice for me.  I need to concentrate on myself.  I can't be happy with anyone until I learn to love myself.  I need to learn to accept and appreciate myself at any weight.  I want to feel confident and secure with who I am because I deserve that regardless of what the scale says.  However, for me when my weight goes up its like I lose myself, my confidence, my strength.  I begin to look and feel sloppy and I hate that feeling.

Today I weigh 325

I have been parking about 1/2 a mile away from work which makes me start my day with a brisk walk.  I sit at a computer all day which makes me feel weak and sluggish.  So I have been trying to force myself to take a walk on my breaks.  So yesterday I ended up walking about 3 miles just during my normal work day.  I like this because if I don't have time to get in some sort of formal exercise in, at least I am getting some movement in.  I think it is helping with weight loss and making me feel stronger.

Low Carb

I ate low carb yesterday.  I wanted to eat about 30 grams of carbohydrates but I ended up eating about 60 grams.  I ate left over roaster's chicken for breakfast but by lunch I was feeling so weird, light headed, dizzy and just kind of out of it.  It was so strange, I never felt like that before.  So I had a grilled cheese for lunch and felt normal again.  I also had a small cookie.  For dinner I made a steak Cesar salad with just a couple croutons because I felt light headed again.  I don't know if I felt hungry or just wanting food later in the evening but I went to bed instead of eating. 

The thing is this morning I woke up and I felt really good.  I felt smaller, less bloated.  I didn't weigh myself, I'm waiting until Friday.  I love that feeling when you wake up and feel smaller but I hate that I allow myself to depend on that feeling for my happiness.  Waking up and feeling smaller makes my whole day, it gives me strength to keep going which is why I didn't weigh myself.  However, if I wake up and feel bloated or extra fat, I allow it to ruin my whole day and sabotage my eating plan but I am working on this. 

01/03/12

1679 calories
256 carbs
52 fat
64 protein

I went over my calorie intake goal, I was doing fine until I had a chocolate chip cookie at Panera's which I didn't realize was 410 calories and in the morning I had a coke which was 140 calories.