My Comfort Zone

Do you ever have those moments when someone ask you to do something and your first thought is, yeah that sounds great, but after thinking about it you begin to think of all the reasons why you can't participate?  For me I want to go out and be social but I am afraid.  I guess I am ultimately afraid of looking like a fool and it sucks to always feel this way and worry about such things. 

So there is this small group of people who work out together after work a few days a week and they asked me to join them and guess what, I really want to.  I think it will be helpful and inspiring but I'm scared.  I'm slow and I am afraid of looking like the fat and out of shape person I am.  I will look like those poor people on the Biggest Loser, ready to pass out, vomit and physically exhausted.  Plus did I mention the group is run by a cute guy? Awkward!

I walked yesterday to see what my speed is and how far I good go, this is the result. 

I can't stop thinking about this quote because I know I am always waiting for things to be my idea of perfect in order for me to participate in anything.  I'm tired or waiting. 

Day 1

Day 1, that sounds so intimidating but not has intimidating as posting pictures of yourself, ugh. I'm not going to focus on how many days I have to go. I guess I have the rest of my life to work on myself and learn and making lasting changes.

I don't think I ate enough especially fruits and vegetables but I'm not hungry so its fine for today. It's kind of hard to figure out calories too. I think my salad for dinner was more calories then I put in My Fitness Pal.

Also, I was going to go the gym, the one I signed up for but have yet to go, but my son had a tennis game so I couldn't get to the gym. I went for a walk instead, however it wasn't much of a walk because it was colder out then I thought. I was kind of disappointed in myself.

I kind of feel like I don't know what I am doing.

Note to self....don't let kids take pictures anymore, find someone taller or make them stand on the couch.